MY POV

 

You said i was awsome and perfect, but actually not awsome and perfect enough for you to stop looking at other girls. :)

You said never let anyone it is make me down, but you are the one who make me think that i'm just never enough and not good enough to be loved. 

You said this is just beginning for us, but till the end you just do the same things when something bothers you or something makes you uncomfortable. 

Because you said i was too judgemental.

If the future you promised us looks like this, like what we have now, then i shouldn't have waited so long. 

I should have left sooner instead of holdin' on and believing every word you said to me.

The truth is i don't think you ever really believed in me from the start, i guess. 

You doubted everyhthing, you doubted me, and you doubted us.

Maybe that's why you kept lookin' for comfor and companion from other girls behind my back.

In the end we can not do it.

I'm sorry if i didn't give you the respect you deserved. 

But in the end you are always the one making excuses.

You use to be so bold and certain about us, now all i see is hesitation and excuses. 

While you said "we can do it together", yet behind my back you were already searching for someone else, maybe you were preparing a backup plan all along, so when i pushed you away again and again, you wouldn't have to be alone. 

Maybe till last year, we still trying to make it work together. 

But then, i saw all the chat all the sexy photo's from that girl that day make me lose my words and i felt that tremble again.

Why he is not sure anymore about us and he can not be brave enough like he use to be, because i found out that he and that girl alredy huggin' each other at his house. He and she shared many videos about they can't wait to live together, kissing, hugging, something intimate like that.

And, they anniversary is on 25th september 2025. where we still together and we even met each other and spending a day together. :)

We even celebrated your birthday together. 

You were there for my eye surgery.

Maybe he feel bad if he come back to me, or maybe not, he is just not into me again. 

But even for what he did to me, i still trying give him a chance after i know about that all :) 

But he is not sure anymore.

In the end what a horror movie he makes for our ending :)

Not even a future that he promised to me :)

But it's okay, really ~ 

and that girl who already become his official Girlfriend no need to worry about anything.

Because hooman can change, and maybe he can be more safe enough and good enough if he with you. ~

That's wht i always tell my friends, some losses don't need to be changed or fixed.

But i do learn from all of that.

It doesn't mean i didn't make mistakes too, i do some mistakes, like my ego sometimes gt in the way and i would gt upset when he was late to pick me up and many more.

But, no one deserve to go through a relationship that causes this much pain.

Because when you're no longer sure about the relationship, the right thing to do is to end it honestly and respectfully, instead of hurting someone along the way.

Do not ever date someone who is not your type, just because you think they will give a good future or bcause they're kind. 

Please date your type, so you won't feel the need to cheat on your partner :)